A Sleepless Night

Midnight.
The night is no longer young, but I am still sober, not tired at all.

Too much coffee, I guess.
Curiosity kills cats. Don’t get yourself into any dangerous experience that you know you will regret one day.
I tried on glasses 10 years ago, when I had perfect eyesight, simply because I thought it was fashionable. Now I can’t even read a whiteboard 2 meters away.
I tried coffee 5 years ago, when I could remain energetic all day without any caffeine, simply because I thought it was cool. Now I am so addicted that will get headache without it.
I tried cigarette, according to my uncle, 20 years ago, and fortunately was too young to appreciate it and form any habit.
Sometimes I want to try it again, simply to see whether I will get addicted this time.
Simply…..
All the reasons are “simple”, in another word, stupid.

Or I am getting old. The older you are, the less sleep you need.
A woman at 24 and at 26, with only 2 years difference, can be very, very different.
When she is 24, in the first half of 20’s, she stills feels like having all the time in the world and everything can rewind for her. Don’t like the job? Get another one. Don’t like the boyfriend? Get another one. Don't like the city? Move to another one. Countless “another one” line ahead.
When she turns 26, in the later half of 20’s, so close to 30, suddenly she realizes she doesn’t have too much time left, meanwhile has too much connection with the “previous one”. Get another job? But what if can’t get a better one? Get another man? But what if the next one is even worse?
So many “what if” make her more and more cautious as time goes, therefore most of women keep boring life and have beautiful dreams, and only a few of them can break through and try to make the dreams come true.

I say so because I know, and yes, bingo, I am 26.
After my 26th birthday, I started to say “I am getting old”.

My principle for a happy marriage is: marry an older man, 3 years, 5 years, 10 years, no problem. This way no matter how old you are, he is always older, and that will be your life time advantage.
Hence Panda.
I start to feel the threatening of aging, but Panda doesn’t share the same fear, he feels he is still very young, despite he is older than me.

Q: “When does a woman fear oldness?”
A: “Always”

Q: “When does a man fear oldness?”
A: “When he falls in love with a younger woman”

So I guess it is a good thing after all. Let Panda keep feeling young forever.

Still not tired.
But time for bed.
Good night.
Sweet Dreams......