What are you looking at!!!

"Gorgeous" Me

My battle with Mom and other warmhearted relatives ended up with giving in 50 and 50!!

I tried for my casual hair, casual make-up bride style, but failed. Well, not totally. I protected my face, with the sacrifice of my hair.

After an early shower, I had my hair dried and casually and naturally down, a little curly, a little shinny in the sun. Proper and healthy look, I think, confidently. Unfortunately, this confidence didn’t last very long, and were totally destroyed by my mom and aunts by their comments of “Not respectful to my audience.” Well, to please my audience, and to save my mom’s face, I was dragged to a hair salon, and got my bride hair done.

Here was the “beautiful” hair, soaked in half a bottle of mousse, stiff as lead thread, pointing to the sky, with some red, green, golden, silver shiny glitter scattering all over. "Gorgeous!!"

It could be more "gorgeous"--- the hair dresser wanted to put a lily or rose on it, but, I was smart enough to kill that thought in its cradle.

She didn’t like my unnoticeable make up either, and suggested a big change starting with trimming my eyebrow…… Oh my! I dashed out of the salon, like a pig running away from a butcher. God helps those who help themselves, and only save those who save themselves. All I wanted was to catch the man who wants to marry me, before he runs away, and before I regret, don’t need to sacrifice my eyebrow for that little selfishness, do I?

某冬日下午

冬日的阳光，懒懒的，
透过办公室的落地玻璃窗照在我的身上。
披着这绚丽的披风，
对着电脑，百无聊赖，
感觉有很多事情要做，
或者说有很多事情应该做
感觉现在这样无所事事，白日梦游是个错误的状态
感觉应该停止
然后奋发图强
我的公德心一向很好
所以，经常会感到愧疚
就像现在
可是，也是个思想大于行动的人
所以，我仍然赖在暖暖的阳光中
快要化开了
身体唯一的动作就是敲打键盘
试着在思绪奔走之前捕捉住一些片断
碎片也好。

从来伊份买的话梅其实不太符我的口味
酸味不足，甜味发腻
可是，目前这是我唯一可以吃的零食
于是便就吃得不停息
牙齿发酸，味蕾疲倦
可我仍不停止
以为它不会让我发胖
于是便有理由地放纵

很多事情都是这样
即便是对的事
如果别人都没做
那我一般也不愿意去做
而错的事
如果有人陪我一起
那我也会心安理得一路错下去

还有一些事情
明知道是错的
身边也没有人同行
可我还是会情不自禁
一个人甜蜜、思念、感慨、做梦、受伤、失落、愤怒、无助……
病态地在一个人的海洋中跌宕
一错再错
乐此不疲

就像现在

那个叫杨坤的男人
低吟浅唱的哼着“无所谓”
听得我也不由得牵动唇角
好像可以展开一个无所谓的微笑
好像自己也可以做到无所谓
心情一下大好

你在他乡猎奇、嬉戏、咖啡
我在这厢慵懒、做梦、红茶
同样的阳光照在你我的身上
谁比谁温暖？
谁比谁快乐？
谁比谁想念？

空调的热风呼呼的吹在我的脸上
因干燥而紧绷
一点喷雾
轻拍脸
温热、光洁
是年轻的脸庞
谁比谁幸福？
谁比谁可悲？
谁比谁想念？

就这样也好
音乐、话梅、冬日暖阳
孤单、想念、无所谓
那就这样吧
一个下午的时光